So this is me at the moment, where I am and my thoughts for the future!
Moving on with life and love...
...a new concept for me, for a character that has always been renowned for 'going with the flow' has now been introduced to the thoughts and feelings of looking to the future.
I owe so much to my ex partner, she made me question myself, who I am, my life’s path and made me be honest. There are so many positives to take away from the relationship, I now have emotions and believe I am confident enough to express them. But unfortunately due to being two steps behind in this worlds ever changing rollercoaster the companion who I love and wanted to share life’s challenges/wonders with has been stumped. I now vow that living in a comfortable bubble will no longer happen from my end, I want to have the confidence, the trust in myself to risk, stick my neck out, work at a partnership, stay honest, equal and NEVER shy away.
For me the light has been switched on, from stepping outside my comfort zone, really being on my own and subjected to so many emotions, I have the answer to the question that hindered my relationship ‘what do I want out of life’?
It feels so good to FINALLY know and it’s probably what the majority of man kind wants - to love and to be loved, to build for a future, house, children, marriage. The high flying job, the materialistic things in life is not my main priority and the most painful; heart wrenching frustration is that I had it and the opportunity to do it with a person that was mine and I loved.
But I realised too late for my past relationship, so I have to move forward; trying not to indulge in my immediate past’s business and accept it was the right person but wrong time is very hard but not an impossible task to deal with. I will grow and keep pushing; and even though I will imagine time to time my life with the person I thought was the one, I will stay positive and remember what I want out of life, and maybe next time...
...the timings will be right.
“One ceases to recognize the significance of mountain peaks if they are not viewed occasionally from the deepest valleys”
